The bruises on my skin are healed now and the last of the mox and valium is out of my system, while my sprained wing is almost fixed. There's something to be said for enhanced stamina, I guess. Looks like I can thank Totem for another ability - I'm able to heal myself rather quickly.

Part of the problem I was facing was that I was trying to follow old habits while being possessed of heightened emotions. This left me run-down and weak-willed, which only made me more suspectible to the bipolar disorder. I refused to learn to dorm and so had to be drugged instead, which induced more mood swings in me when I was off them.

I have decided to deal with my emotions in a few different ways.

One: keep one of those cute little plush Charrs you can buy from a Divis Mall. They're cheap, easily replaceable and good for tearing apart in frustration.

Two: make several copies of Machina's avatar and attach one to a dartboard. You'd be amazed how accurate my dart-throwing abilities have gotten over the past day.

Three: chocolate. Lots of chocolate.

Four: the occasional slice of semi-rare meat.

Five: I will keep that one secret.

I'd like to thank everyone for their offers of help over the past couple of days and apologise to the forum users who had nothing to do with this for my bitching and moaning.

You don't deserve these new gifts. You had no right invading Totems mind.

I don't care if your intentions were with the kindest intentions, I don't ever want to hear of you violating him again.

Let me assure you, Apep, I will never do it again.

And I'm still of two minds whether these are 'gifts', as you call them. I lost my job and lifestyle because of them.

I know that it's not Totem's fault, Apep, and I know that if you decided to do something about it, I wouldn't have a hope in hell of stopping you.

Well then, we at least agree on something.

Codex, heal and grow. Your body and soul have been opened to new possibilities.

Sister Apep, please find forgiveness for one who did not know what they were doing. Gifts come to us wether we wish them, or not.

Codex, your lifestyle sucked. You were in a gilded cage. I could see it. I didn't know how bad off you had it until we spent some time together for a bit. What good is a lifestyle when it slowly swallows your soul?

So, now new opportunities will pop up. I am absolutely sure there is a place for you in this big universe of ours.

Fuck, Regan, you don't have to keep it a secret. I'm proud, really. Tell the world about our love. There's nothing to be ashamed of.

Oh, shit. You didn't tell Franklin yet, did you.