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#84941 - 03/21/07 10:37 PM
Let Me Clear The Air
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Nova
Registered: 09/23/05
Loc: Podunk, Hickville
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Alright, as it said: Let me clear the air. Apparently when Revenant went off on PW and Waki some people took some personal offense to it. Why people would take personal offense to an in character post is beyond me, but since I am not them I will respect their right to be offended by what I said. To clear it up, yes it was harsh, even for Revenant, but let me clue you in to why. This forum has an ass load of people who play mega smart characters; Revenant is not mega smart. He cannot keep up with you people sometimes and I try and reflect that in his posts (they sometimes start out sounding okay then degenerate into swearing and what not). Imagine, just for a second (and don't tell me you can't, you play RPGs people) that you were trying to prove a point in a room people a million times your better intellectually, and every time you debated a point that was simple, and easy to understand some ass wipe went and flipped the script on you and placed the answer into words and phrases that flew way over your head when a simple 'yes' or 'no' would have sufficed. That particular thread, Reven frankly ran out of things to say, with each and every post all it was a 'no matter what you say, I'm right' game. Reven is a simple man, and when he runs out of ways to explain things he shouts at the screen, slams his head against the desk, and writes the most vulgar thing he can think of because that's how he deals with being stupid (the guy has a third grade math level people, if it wasn't for calculators that little secret would have been out months ago). Oh, and Revenant is not the "I'll martyr myself to Revenant's wrath so my Girlfriend will pity fuck me." character. I was rather disappointed that I wasted my time setting up a plotline and developing what possible lessons and outcomes Revenant could take away from it. If it wasn't for the tremendous amount of respect Revenant had for Flicker, then Neil would be dead and I'd be retiring Revenant to Nova Jail (or playing my 'nobody knows it was me' card, cuz those fool even Postcogs with the 'Moving Vision' extra.) So, if you were offended, I apologize, that certainly was not my intent. IC posts are just that, IC. Please never assume that the words and opinions of Revenant ever mirror my own. There are some words Reven hasn't used, and it's simply because I personally would never use them. Obviously there are very few... heh, but there are. Hugs, kisses, and a pat on the ass, ~Dave P.S. Revenant is one of 'The People'. He's full blooded 'Smackahoe'. 
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#85063 - 03/23/07 10:14 AM
Re: Let Me Clear The Air
[Re: Neil Preston]
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Wakanwinyan
Registered: 08/19/05
Loc: Inyan Kara
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OK, fine. Let's clear the air.
I'm done with the OpNet2017. For PW, for TS, for SC, for all of my various two-letter acronyms.
Why? Because I'm sick and tired of every thread turning into a dog-pile. I'm sick and tired of the way that characters that apparently have massive dots in Empathic Manipulation with the OpNet Troll extra have made it their mission to find - or create, if need be - fault in others and then hammer it into the ground in a display that harkens back to the worst memories of high school. And to be completely honest, I'm sick to fucking death of players who think that this is a dandy way to play.
I came to N!Prime to have some fun with Aberrant roleplaying. For the first year and change, that's what I got. But for months now, the place has turned into a clique-ridden attack-fest... and apparently, once you've been pegged as an easy target - as my characters have - you're options are to (1) accept that you're a permanent subject of derision, (2) leave, (3) die, or (4) join in the bashing of the next easy target so that you can join the clique.
My characters are taking option #2... and so, frankly, am I. I escaped high school once, and have no desire to live in it again.
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#85067 - 03/23/07 11:34 AM
Re: Let Me Clear The Air
[Re: Ptesan-Wi]
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8th Deadly Sin
Registered: 03/12/06
Loc: Babylon
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That's your prerogative. It's unfortunate, as it won't change anything, but it's your choice. I admit, however, that I don't have the will or the patience to say, "No! Don't do that, please!" because, even with PW, it's difficult to tell what's IC and what's OOC in some of the aforementioned threads. I won't apologize for my opinions, or for those of my character, but I am sorry if you took anything I've said to heart.
I haven't just been taking "extended vacations" from NPrime because I'm busy, but because of the illogical, the egocentric, and the "poor-me" behaviors that (in my opinion) seem very common these days. I was a lot more willing, when I first arrived here, to just get along and go along, but I can't make myself do that anymore. If something bothers me, I'm going to come out with it, and it's unfortunately not always going to be in a tactful way. I'm sure people have already been offended, and our resident "Intelligence Expert" is already theorizing that there are extant OOC issues, but I'm honestly not trying to be cruel. I just don't have the patience for many of the subjects and thought processes I once did.
I like and respect everyone here, with two obvious exceptions, so if something I say really torques you off, feel free to let me know directly. I do it, and I'm not going to cry foul when someone else responds in kind.
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#85078 - 03/23/07 02:10 PM
Re: Let Me Clear The Air
[Re: Velvet]
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Wakanwinyan
Registered: 08/19/05
Loc: Inyan Kara
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You know what, Velvet? You're right, at least in part.
I'm just now finishing up three of the worst weeks of my life. And unfortunately, this business with PW happened to coincide perfectly with everything else going wrong. I lost my grip, and lashed out here.
That said, I do think that there is a problem on OpNet2017, beyond my own frustration. It's all well and good to say, "this is IC, and is true to my character." But there's a line that can get crossed somewhere along the way, a line where that statement becomes a means of being a jerk with a ready-built excuse. Without naming names, there are some folks here who have, from my admittedly subjective point of view, stepped over that line.
A quick point: PW has issues, no argument there. She thinks she's following a path of Teras when she's incapable of doing so, she believes that she is really the White Buffalo Calf Woman returned, and she doesn't know the truth of what she really is. And yes, she's bought into the traditional Lakota heritage bit with all the ferverence that only a convert to a cause can have. But she is not a white-hating racist.
Now maybe I am just incapable of making that last point clear via IC posts. I'm lousy with people and communication, and I can accept that that is valid possibility. Or maybe certain characters who get their jollies by twisting what folks say until they can rebuild said folks into characatures have done exactly that with PW. Frankly, I think that there's a least a major dose of the latter going on here. But either way, it has rapidly devolved to the point where there is exactly nothing she can say that won't be shoved back in her face or blithely dismissed as the "attention-whoring of a narcissistic racist bitch". It's reached the point where the character has been brutally and thoroughly trashed, and there's no apparent avenue of redemption available. And I honestly believe that that's exactly the way that certain characters - and certain players - want it.
Now, if you want to read this as "poor-me" behavior, feel free. But I can't just paste a smile on and say, "golly gee, isn't everything here great".
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#85081 - 03/23/07 02:49 PM
Re: Let Me Clear The Air
[Re: Courier]
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Nova
Registered: 01/08/07
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I'm just now finishing up three of the worst weeks of my life... Ow. Sorry about that. And I'll back her on this, as I've been eyewitness to most of nastiness of the three weeks. I'd also like to add something to what she said. I was asked by Hugin a while back why I didn't post in the OpNet often. And my answer was, "Every time I say something out there, I get jumped for it. So I have no fun there. I have lots of fun in fictions." Today, I have characters that won't post in the OpNet because they feel attacked everytime they post, and after a while, they give up IC. I know that saying this won't change anything. Those of you who have characters that enjoy shredding others will just point out that you have every right IC to ICly shred my characters. Fine. Have fun posting with, shredding each other, or patting one another on the back about how sharp your tongue is. Like it or not, saying "It's all IC," isn't entirely true. Yes, those are supposed to be our character's thoughts, but they came from our brain, and they are ours on some, deep level. It's the reason that Dreamer gets so defensive about his ideas; they're his, and when every idea you have gets knocked down (no matter how wrong the idea is), you get upset. It does have an effect on people over time. N!Prime used to be somewhere completely fun. It's still fun, but I wouldn't say completely so. I understand why PW wants to pull away. I don't, because I've learned to let it roll off my back. But I've done so because I've had the support of some wonderful people whose response to my detracters were, "Meh, fuck 'em. Who cares?" PW has not had that same support. And, at the risk of implying weakness on her part, I want to add, she is not prepared socially to deal with rejection. This is a flaw on her part, but it is one she shares with a ton of people on this planet. It is one she used to share with me, until the lot of you turned me into an iron-sided bitch (yes, this is all your faults  ). My point? It's simple. Some of you are tough sons of bitches. Some of you chew nails for dinner. All I ask is that you remember that not everyone else does, and judging them by your standards will not work. Take that how you will, and happy gaming to you all.
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#85095 - 03/23/07 04:38 PM
Re: Let Me Clear The Air
[Re: Ptesan-Wi]
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8th Deadly Sin
Registered: 03/12/06
Loc: Babylon
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I don't think "redemption" is necessary. From my own perspective, though, it would be much more satisfying if (and I understand why you might not be in the mood or mindset to do this) there were more fictions, even brief ones, that did address some of the issues PW seems to have. From reading only her OpNet posts, a lot of the accusations being leveled at her are hard to refute.
Admittedly, these posts may already exist, and I've just missed them, but here are a few of the things I wonder about.
-Why does PW so slavishly defend Wakinyan, knowing everything he's done wrong?
-Having been born white, what prompts her to behave as if she's always been Lakota?
-At what point do the deceptions she perpetuates on a daily basis(pretending more or less to be Lakota, lying about being a nova, trying to join the Teragen, etc.) begin to prevent her from being completely honest with herself, or do they?
Reading PW's OpNet responses on various subjects always makes me think, as a reader, "Gah! What is she hiding from? What's going to happen when these illusions she has about her life are shattered?" My most persistent impression of her is that she's a good person, but completely delusional about a lot of things- either because she truly believes them, or because she really wants to believe them. It makes for an undoubtedly interesting and complex character, but at least for me, a frustrating read because I want badly (as a reader, mind) to see her recognize the things that are holding her back and rise above them.
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#85097 - 03/23/07 04:49 PM
Re: Let Me Clear The Air
[Re: Velvet]
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Wakanwinyan
Registered: 08/19/05
Loc: Inyan Kara
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There's actually quite a lot of fictions for PW, many of them linked in the profile in the signature-line.
It's a lot to slog through, but it does show that she glomped onto the Lakota culture first as a means of hiding her true background and out of love for her husband, then out of concern and care for "her" people, and finally in a psychotic break that has her thinking that she really is the mythical Ptesan-Wi. Like I said, there's nothing more ferverent than a convert (to pretty much anything), and you don't get much more converted than Ptesan-Wi has experienced.
For some of the same reasons, lying about being a nova has become second-nature to her, but her devotion to Teras is - while horribly misguided - genuine; she really thinks that it holds a path for her, and (falsely) believes that it guided her to reaching her recent breakthrough (Psi 6).
The Wakinyan thing is the hardest to explain, and I'm not sure I could address it correctly no matter how much I wrote on the topic. Simply put, something in her - who knows what - fell in love with him at first mental "sight", and she is the sort who loves unconditionally. It results in a massive blind-spot where he is concerned.
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#85116 - 03/23/07 09:05 PM
Re: Let Me Clear The Air
[Re: Trooper]
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Nova
Registered: 09/23/05
Loc: Podunk, Hickville
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I have this crazy little thing I do...
I look at character sheets (when they're avail).
PW has the Megalomania flaw, I know that, Revenant doesn't. So, when PW is sitting on her high horse and using her mega smarts to justify everything she and Waki do his small mind cannot keep up.
He gets mad, he yells at the screen, and he breaks stuff. Then he scoops up all his Hot Wheels, screams 'fuck this game!' and runs off to his bedroom to suck his thumb and sulk.
I personally go turn on my playstation and wait from someone to reply to something. Cuz IRL this is text on screen, and I couldn't give a squirt of piss what someone posts IC.
Now, ya dig into me OOC and we have a problem. That's when I get mad, yell, break stuff, and scoop up all my Hot Wheels while screaming 'fuck this game!'. Go into my bedroom, rub one out (maybe two) and sulk.
So, ya see. It's all good.
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#85122 - 03/23/07 10:07 PM
Re: Let Me Clear The Air
[Re: Trooper]
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Nova
Registered: 09/09/05
Loc: Heartland, USA
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I'm going to run people who have issues, who will get into arguments and who aren't necessarily right. Well said! Being psychotic is much more enjoyable. Since everyone else is 'clearing the air' about their characters, I guess is time for me to do the same. Not that there is anything to really say about Rat, that he has not already demonstrated by his actions. Rat is sick....brilliant but sick. In many ways he is a tragic figure. His mental illness happened because of a tragic event. His many years of living on the streets while mentally ill, have made him resentful of those who are healthy and normal. His eruption made mattters worse. His antipathy towards anything deemed normal, created what is now a diseased monster. Both mentally and physically. He does what he does to make himself feel better. It is his hope that through Teras, he can cleanse himself of what he sees as 'a baseline weakness'...that weakness being the mental illness that defined much of his baseline past. Granted, his more extreme mental issues, Delusions and Sociopathy, are a direct result of taint. But they are still extensions of his baselne, diseased psyche. Feel free to lay into Rat as a character. Feedback is always welcome.
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#85139 - 03/24/07 01:09 AM
Re: Let Me Clear The Air
[Re: The White Rat]
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Nova
Registered: 01/02/07
Loc: Philadelphia, PA
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Alright, I guess I'll throw myself on the pyre, too. No sense in pretending I'm not at least the ass or trunk of the elephant in the room, huh?
For starters, let me say that Machina has the 'Mega-Bastard' aberration from 'Brainwaves'. He's a dick to everyone, even people he likes. Every compliment is veiled by sarcasm or accompanied by some backhanded barb. And people he doesn't like? Well, you've all seen that plenty, and not just in the last week. He has to spend Willpower just to not be a dick. And, hey, his Willpower pool is impressive, but with a cap of ten, there's only so many punches he can pull.
I don't want to get into a bio on the character as a moment, partially because the character's actual motivations and personal life are something that's known to only a few people here, and I'd like to keep it that way so that when and if it ever becomes public knowledge, the surprise (and I'm not being disingenuous when I say I think some of you will definitely be surprised) will be more genuine. However, a few things are pretty apparent: Machina is a mega-genius, a bitter drunkard (which probably should have been implied by saying that he was a mega-genius, but, you know, just to be sure), and a former Army Ranger, mercenary, and Directive Operative. He does not like most novas, he abhors people with a sense of entitlement, and he can't stomach bad arguments. As a virtual hermit living in a bunker where he chain smokes and invents things, one of his only releases or form of intellectual stimulus is to tear people down. That probably sounds petty, and at least in some part it very much is, but Machina's primary goal isn't to make fun of people; it's to shock them out of complacency. He is the nova equivalent of the zen keisaku, a kick to the head meant to jar the senses. In this, he isn't polite and he finds it morally unacceptable to back down. Part of that is taint, part of that is the fact that he was a big jerk even before his eruption, and part of that is his being utterly and unequivocally convinced of his rightness. He's kind of like the nova version of Gregory House before there was a Gregory House.
As a character, he doesn't know a lot about many characters. He's an introvert and tends to run with a limited number of people who can stomach his company. As a player, his opinions don't necessarily reflect my own, and despite my well-earned reputation for being a bit of a regeaholic, myself, his anger is not a reflection of my own. I keep IC and OOC very discrete. As such, if anyone feels particularly aggrieved by anything Machina says IC, my advice is to man up and either hit back or simply ignore him. Stop giving him nails and he'll stop crucifying you. If this is a serious concern for someone OOC, then perhaps you should let me know as a player and open up a communication with me about it. Because baiting my character without telling me it's an OOC problem is only going to make my character keep fucking with you, like a rambunctious Mastiff that doesn't realize you're not playing, too.
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#85236 - 03/24/07 07:27 PM
Re: Let Me Clear The Air
[Re: Catalyst]
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8th Deadly Sin
Registered: 03/12/06
Loc: Babylon
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I don't think the world being "fractured" is a problem. It's not reasonable to expect that all of the novas who visit these forums would live/work/rampage in one geographic location, and I don't believe all of the stories or interactions should overlap. If, for example, everyone had to live in New York, no character could act at all without tromping all over someone else.
That being said, here are a couple of suggestions off the top of my head- feel free to critique them as you see fit.
* Accountability. If someone commits a crime in a fiction which would reasonably be discovered by an investigator, and in which other PCs are participating, he/she should not be able to negate the consequences by stating that he/she will not under any circumstances be caught. For example: When Revenant and Wakinyan destroyed part of Gary, Indiana, they were both forced to accept the consequences and have had to roleplay accordingly. This should apply to all such actions, and not be limited specifically to criminal activity.
* Invitation. Players who haven't been invited to participate in fictions that are also not specifically listed as being "open" should not invite themselves. This is rude, and makes for uncomfortable and unhappy players.
* Communication. Players involved in fictions should, out of courtesy, communicate to each other the overarching goal of said fiction. Describe whether a power is to be gained, a religious epiphany reached, etc. I'm aware quite a few people enjoy unplanned stories, but even a brief exchange citing what you'd like your character to gain from the interaction would smooth the way.
* Realism. I'm aware that it's not completely realistic for people to fly, hurl bolts of lightning from their hands, or turn into sentient, radioactive goo. By "realism" I mean, "adherence to the generally accepted laws of the universe and failure to deviate in any meaningful way from what could properly be called 'common sense.'" Some people here seem to have serious difficulty with these concepts. Even in the Aberrant world, some things are logically impossible for certain (or all) characters, and the generally laissez-faire moderating style should not be abused by these players.
Again, these are all off the top of my head, and I'm considering them more from the "Player Courtesy" standpoint than strict rule creation.
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#85244 - 03/24/07 08:35 PM
Re: Let Me Clear The Air
[Re: Hugin]
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Nova
Registered: 01/30/07
Loc: the sharp end
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My observations and commentary on Velvet's suggestions, along with a few of my own: 1) Accountability: One of the biggest problems with the current state of accountability on the boards is the somewhat awkward and confused state of on-board canon in the 2017 enviornment when it comes to Project Utopia and the international legal situation in regards to novas. Just to take a handful of examples: Waki and PW both represent a certain degree of vigilante justice in their geographic area. Likewise the WCK. It has yet to be established, and certainly not with any degree of clarity, how the United States government feels about these activities or what arrangements have been made to bypass the problems they represent for normal law and order. In a similiar fashion, I recently represented Wargear taking part in a major African conflict in a fashion that would probably not meet with Project Utopia's approval, and might even involve sanctions from the group being placed on Alexandra. The reason that hasn't happened yet, in game, is that I'm unclear on the current status of Project Utopia, its political power and will, and whether it cares enough about African brushwars at the moment to get involved. I'm equally uncomfortable defining that policy all on my own, because once I do that the next person to come along either has to live by it or totally invalidate my interpretation, and possibly the story it's part of in the process. That, more than anything else, is the central problem with accountability in in 2017: who is going to prosecute novas, what powers do those authorities have at their disposal, and how should we as players relate to those authorities? In some ways, that's made even more awkward by the fact that 2017 is a primarily Terat board. The characters (and thus often the players) have a natural interest in minimizing the power of national and international authorities because those authorities are the ones most likely to want to jail or kill them for being part of a dangerous, if not outright terrorist, movement. But the more we satisfy that impulse, for freedom of character expression in-game, the harder it becomes to hold anyone accountable for extreme behavior because the in-game authorities are so effectively hamstrung. I won't dispute Velvet's second and third points in the least. Inter-player communication is crucial at both the "who is invited" and "what are we doing here" levels, and quite often that communication is lacking. Unfortunately, that's not a policy level decision, so it's up to the players themselves to improve that. 4) Realism. This is probably the weakest link in Velvet's prescription, and to a certain extent the weakest link for the board as a whole. Put in the simplest terms: every single person here has a different idea of what the accepted laws of the universe and common sense actually look like in practice, and most of the really violent arguments that people get into around here which lead to someone protest "the game isn't fun anymore" come out of a very simple problem: they and the person they're arguing with define 'common sense' and 'basic good conduct' in violently different and incompadible ways. Everyone reading this is about to say "Don't be silly, of course I know what common sense is!" A couple of examples will serve here: Waki thinks that his particular form of taint mutation, turning into a giant gryphon, is perfectly sensible and dramatically interesting. I have heard it expressed (and I'm not going to say who said it, because that's not the point here) that other people on the board think that use of taint and the aberration rules is outright silly or violates the basics of common sense. I don't care who's right on that one, but it illustrates my point: both sides have valid arguments that can be made, but both have very different definitions of what's 'realistic.' A different example: Machina's player thinks that it's important to accurately reflect the Mega-bastard aberration that the character has in his stories and board conduct in a very literal way, because that's the way the rules and character work and he thinks it makes for better art and more fun for the board overall. Other people on the board think that it's a violation of common sense for his character to be as verbally rough as he is, and have repeatedly complained about it as making the game less fun for them. What's at issue there is: how literally do we take the rules in pursuit of a "realistic" game, and how much do we bend them for the general comfort of the board? Again, I'm not trying to argue either side. I'm just trying to point out the difference in definition. Don't fall asleep on me, now.  I know I'm going on and on, but I think the points are important to make. One last example: The WCK is a semi-vigilante, semi-official group protecting the city of Chicago, and is mostly staffed by people with extremely sketchy personal histories. Most people accept this as realistic... but I, personally, consider it highly implausible. I don't complain because I think it makes for good stories, and I like the writing that comes out of it. So "realism" or "common sense" can't be ends in and of themselves, or lots of great ideas can't be put to use and a lot of fun can't be had. Unless we can come to a collective definition of what we do and don't consider sensible as a group (which I expect would be a very long, nasty fight), then this problem will just keep coming back. Okay. Whew! That was long. Now, a few suggestions of my own: 1) As a courtesy, I think it would be good for people to attach to their character introductions/profiles a list of the legal protections or special statuses their character enjoys, so that anyone who wants to question their accountability can have that information ready at hand. I appreciate some people want to keep their characters mysterious, and maybe it should be provided on request by PM instead, but I think some form of official log of such legal protections made when they are gained is extremely worthwhile and shouldn't require reading fifty-plus pages of fiction. 2) I don't think the sub-forums are particularly wise, if only from the perspective of creating more isolation in what's already a slightly disjointed sense of a common universe. I think Hugin covered the rest of my thoughts on that pretty well. I'm sure I could add more, but I've talked long enough for one post.
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#85245 - 03/24/07 08:37 PM
Re: Let Me Clear The Air
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